12:34

A short bit of thought inspired by a conversation. Not really a story so much as just sharing. Enjoy.



Do you ever look at the clock and it is the same time every day? The time I find myself looking at the clock most is 12:34. Of course this is a trick of the mind. I look at the clock all the time. These moments just stand out because I want to see the pattern. I want this time to mean something. When I look up and it is 12:34 I feel happy for no reason at all.

That is okay though right? To feel happy for no reason. In that moment of happiness I have one other thought. A wish I guess. Like how children will see 11:11 or a shooting star or are driving through a tunnel and if they can just hold their breath long enough then that wish will come true. I have always made the same wish. For as long as I can remember making wishes. I always wish that someone I love or care about will have a good day. I try to never be more specific than that, unless I know someone needs the good day. I never wish for myself to have a good day, but I guess if I love myself I might be included in the wish. I never offer what day or what good really means. I just want a moment where I can imagine someone I care about receiving the gift of a good day. That all of my wishing somehow provides those days. 

Then I feel silly. Even when I was young I felt silly, wishing for good days didn't make them so. It did give me hope though. I guess part of me hoped someone was wishing for me too. Wishing that I was happy and healthy. It is unfortunate that everything somehow still feels selfish. But maybe it is not selfish to want to be cared for and about. Maybe it is just human.

Guess you're wondering why I felt the need to share this story. I guess because I still make a wish every time it's 12:34 and every time I see a shooting star and I'll hold my breath in every tunnel. So that I can make a wish for all the people I care about, today for you. That you will have a good day. Maybe not today or tomorrow, but that you deserve so many good days, you deserve to have someone wish well for you.

Best wishes,

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